first ever photowalk

Morong, Rizal

photowalk with Sir Gineb and my dearest

Patrick/bee/Ai (http://pabeehappy.blogspot.com)

used a Nikon D50

we had so much fun and i like the results of my

photos though i'm a newbie in this hobby.

11 Personal Messages to 11 people :)

haha. this one is fun. got the idea from kuya dino.so it’s like this, I’ll be writing personal messages to different people, to whom I wanna say something.. it is not the case na lahat ng binigyan ko ng message are only those who matter to me.. so if you feel that i don't have a message for you, that doesn’t mean you’re not important to me..perhaps, di rin naman lahat ng binigyan ko ng message ay so important.. very important lang..haha..

I wont be naming names, so if you feel my messages are pertaining to you, leave at least 25% doubt. feel mo naman..hehe, joke.. but if you’re so sure ikaw yun, you’re accountable with that. this is going to be fun.

1. I wonder how you are doing right now, and if you can still remember me. It was like 5 years ago since we last saw each other. Not even a facebook account can help me find you. You deserve to be one of my best friends. We grew old together. Until you needed to go to where you are right now. I'm happy for you, though. I'm just imagining, maybe you are on your way to stardom :)) You really love dancing, right? However, I'm still happy seeing you in your mom's facebook account. You still didn't change, I mean, you're still pretty. I hope I'll be informed the next time you spend your vacation here. Regards to your sister! :)

2. Oooh. What can I say? I just know that of all the men who ever existed here on earth, I'm lucky that I'm blessed with someone like you. I've always been thankful to God for your life. I wouldn't be where I am now because of you. My future relies on you, I know that. I miss you. I'm so excited to experience the bright future God has planned for me. Thanks! Because you and God works together! I love you both. Don't worry, never in my prayers have I forgotten you. Not even once. :) And hey, I'd love to be where you are now. I'll go there too. I'll follow you :)

3. You know what, you're very childish. :)) I didn't mean to create this message to let the world know how immature you are. (Who could even guess who am I pertaining to, right? :D) Still, I enjoy being a friend to you. And to let you know, I'm exasperated with you being so smart in the class. It's not that I'm being insecure. There's just this kinda 'force' that really annoys me every time we sit beside each other in class. (Isn't it strange of me? :D) Anyway, friend, I hope everything's fine about you. No problems about your family or whatsoever. I miss dating with you. :)

4. Sure as hell that you will never be able to read this. You are truly a blessing for me. Without you, I will never be in this world. Yeah, that's true. Some of your genes actually completed my DNA. :)) And that's why Angelique Nel is born. ;) I always pray that God will give you more years to spend your life with us. You are also the reason why I'm so excited and very eager to graduate and have my work. In other words, you belong to my plans. So, don't leave us yet, okay? I know you are still strong, and I know that you would love to see me finish my studies. I love you so much. :)

5. I miss you, the laughter, the jokes, the creepy ideas coming from your mind and the unanswerable questions. It's true, that you will really appreciate a person when you are apart. It still makes me sad, because I miss the old times--when we will laugh so hard because we saw a funny person, a funny act, a funny face. :)) I miss your presence as a classmate and as a best friend. But knowing the fact that you are always there everytime I have problems of my own or problems about others, it enlightens me because you make me realize of my mistakes, and as you always tell me, I should always look at the sky.. My problems will never be as wide and expansive as the sky. Thank you so much! I, too, will always be here for you. You know that. ;) Lab ka ni gel. :)

6. Miss! I don't know. The idea of including you here suddenly popped into my mind. You know what Miss, I admire you and your accomplishments. I am happy of where you are now, because I know that in time, in God's perfect timing, I'll have my own accomplishments too. I admire you being so bright, spirited and energetic. Glad that I've known you, and to be taught by you. You're a blessing to many students. :) Keep it up!

7. Hello. I miss you,and the personal and biblical talks. I actually envy you when it comes to your relationship with God. You're always on fire. You are one of those who remind me to stay close to Him. I miss our conversations. I miss your advices. I miss the times when I share my problems to you, and you help me deal with it and pray about it. I can say that you're one of the best! God bless you with your work. I hope to see you soon. :*

8. What now? I think I'm running out of words to say to you. It's like I've said all the words that I have to say. Oooh wait, I still have to say those two words! :)) Can you guess what are they? :)) Anyway, thank you. Thank you for being such a great buddy, companion, pal, partner,and a mate to me. Thank you for the calls, texts, sweet messages, sweet conversations, sweet acts, and most of all, the sweet smile. :) Every little thing about you is really appreciated. Every little thing about you is contagious. :)) You are the reason why eating is a habit that I should love. :D Good luck Doc! :) You are, indeed, worth all the 18 years of waiting. <3

9. Hi! How's the unending party and praise and worship there in heaven? I just wanted to include you here. You know how much i grieved when I knew about your death. We're not even close, and how come you just appeared in my dreams to let me know that in the next few days, you will die? Sorry, I wasn't aware that dreams may sometimes be true and might happen. :| I'm happy for you now. You will no longer experience the hardships brought by that disease. I hope to see you there, but not so soon. :) Thanks!

10. You are the person who loves to do silly things to everyone. I understand that you just want us to be happy. I understand that it is you, the real you. You are a person who is really blessed of kindness. No doubt, you have lots and lots of friends. And I know that you are really dedicated of the things you do. So I'm happy for you. How I wish, we could spend another overnight swimming! Yeah! :D We miss it, and your house, too! Another thing, I hope you'll find your true love na. :))) God bless you! :*

11. Wee. I'm so excited to have you, guyS (yeah, it's plural :D), in my life. In our lives, i mean. We just have to wait for the right time. The right time wherein Mom and Dad are already certified MDs. :)) Of course, we want to give you the life that you deserve. That's why we're studying now as hard as we could. We endure all the ka-toxican and everything, not just for you, but also for our parents. :)) For now, we have to be selfish. We have to fulfill our dreams for ourselves first before we start to have our dreams for you. ;) RN, Eiffel, MD, Mrs. Velasco. Have to make those happen FIRST. :D It's kinda weird to include you here. Blame your dad. LOL.

I'll learn from it, I'll live with it, and i will love it.

Geez. after sometime, nasundan na rin ang blog entry ko. oh well, i really have to do this. i even forgot my username and password. :))

Just had my rotation at Philippine National Police General Hospital a week ago. Assigned at the Male Medical Ward, 2-10pm shift. Enjoyed the first day. Didn't get the chance to go to the ward because first days are supposedly for orientation only. :) Thank God for 'first days'. He makes me prepare about what will I encounter on the whole rotation. I always pray that He will bless me, the works of my hand, the patients I will handle, and make me attentive all the time.

On the 2nd day, I finally met my patient. I was like "Lucky me, I got a very nice and cooperative patient". :)) I treated him as my 'new-found friend'. He was cheerful, until I heard about his story..

PO2 A.C. was diagnosed with TB Meningitis 2 years ago. It was also the reason why his own family left him. I needed to interview him for my case study, and I hesitated to ask him about his family. He was crying while telling me his story. Yes, he feels anger against his wife. And at the end of the interview, I told him,"Sir, leave it all to God. Pray for your family. Forgive your wife. You said you always want to be alone, it is also the best time for you to pray."

And suddenly, Mr. Manuel--PO2's father--came. I was like listening to him for about an hour. Yet, I enjoyed it. I learned a lot from him. He even told me some of his secrets. I knew how he really love his son. He has been there for him for almost 3 months of confinement.

They actually belong to a family of police/soldier. So it means, patriotism runs in their blood. Believe me, Mr. Manuel even told me his rage against Ferdinand Marcos :))))) He said that Marcos was the great liar.

Mr. Manuel was a farmer and a mechanic. He said, "Mechanics make the world go round. How could the doctors use such machines without the help of mechanics. How could people use cars without our help. Do you agree?". I agreed, of course.

He even told me not to work abroad. He curses everyone who works abroad. Including us, the future nurses. He called us 'bitch'. According to him, our only goal is to work abroad just for money. It somehow hurt my feelings, but I have to respect his opinion. :))

As for me, if I know that there's a future that lies ahead of me in this country, then I will no longer go to other country and serve them. Practicality, isn't it? It's not that I'm being hopeless about the Philippines. Most of the Filipinos nowadays know that it's the only way for them to get through of poverty, right? :)) And that's my opinion. ;)

Another thing that I learned from Mr. Manuel is that, "Nurses should be flexible, you should know when to be happy or sad in front of the patient. But you should never absorb the emotions or even the stories they have in life."Again, I agreed!

One thing that I love about my chosen profession: I have the chance to reach out for people, know their stories, pray for them, and lift their lives to God. It's the simplest way for me to share my life to them.

At the end of the day, I take time to thank God not just for the lives of my patients, but also for the life I have right now. I know I'll encounter more of it years and years from now. I've chosen this course/profession, I'll learn from it, I'll live with it, and i will love it. <3

His LOVE is EXTRAVAGANT. :)

HE loves me. I know HE does. HE always does. HE never fails to let me feel that kind of love that really soothes my being. HE will do everything for me, and will give me everything I need just to make me happy. HE’s always with me everywhere I go. HE guides me and keeps me from harm. HE listens to my problems. HE doesn’t want me to bear those problems… alone.

I’m lucky that I met HIM. I’m grateful for having the chance to know HIM more. I mean, in a deeper way.

I admit, I MISS HIM, everything about HIM, everything HE does for me. I miss the times when I talk to HIM before I sleep. I miss HIS voice. I miss the way HE reminds me about HIS promises. I miss the times when HE speaks to me about my wrongdoings. HE never tolerated me of doing those. HE teaches me a lot of things. HE will never let me go on in this life without having me learned those lessons from HIM.

THAT’S THE WAY HE LOVES ME. HE gives me HIS attention. HE spends time for me. HE helps me in my studies.

AND THE MOST WONDERFUL THING ABOUT HIM?

HE WILL NEVER LET ME GO.

HE will never let anyone or anything come between US. HE won’t let them ruin the intimate relationship we have now. HIS LOVE IS EXTRAVAGANT! No one else will make me feel the joy to be loved by HIM, NO ONE.

HE keeps HIMSELF closer to me. But it’s me who seems to choose to be distant from HIM. It’s hard. It’s very difficult for me to be in this kind of situation. I’m out of track. I’m heading nowhere. I can’t find ways to go back to HIM again.

I need HIM. I always do. I know HE’ll help me get through this. HE’ll never let me go astray. I want to feel HIS presence. HE’s the very reason why life is worth living for.

For it is HIM, GOD, who gave me this life, and has a plan to let me experience the joy the world offers. But I know, life is meaningless without knowing HIM in this existence.

LORD, I’m coming back! I know that YOU’ll welcome me again with Your hands wide open. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

YOU ARE TRULY A GOD OF SECOND CHANCES.

Blogging is the simplest way for me to share my thoughts, my experiences, my happiness (even my sorrows).. and everything. I am the type of person who values every important details in my life and wants to share it to everyone even if the whole world doesn't even matter. :)

I'll start blogging some other time. :)

~nel